Still...

So when I started this blog I figured "Hey...I can write about my Faith and my Faith journey every day and it will be easy." I soon realized that was not true. I began to start thinking about writing the same things over and over again and I had writers block...A LOT! I write occasionally now, maybe once a week or every other week. It works. And it is still my Faith Journey but I include a lot about me.  I talk about issues of today and the past and what weighs on my mind because, well, it all is a part of my Faith Journey.
It has been almost 5 months since I lost my job. I pray daily, I have interviewed to no avail (and one horror story that is too long and complicated to write about here) and still nothing. I know there is a plan for me. I think I figured this much out...1) GOD wants me to live where my husband lives so we are not separated. 2) GOD has a huge surprise and only HE knows what will really happen and what he wants for my life. I am trying not to lose hope or Faith.  It is hard. So so hard and I keep going.
I wake up every day and sleep every night. I love my life. I laugh and sing and dance and wish that I could incorporate that type of activity and fun in my new job. Then I think...when will that be? I cook and clean and reorganize our house. I travel to my parents house...more so than when I had a job. Why? Because I can. Because I have the time and I don't have to worry about using a vacation or sick day to do it. I am on my own time and not under any time constraints. I can live and enjoy life.
So...where has my FJ (Faith Journey) brought me to so far. Well...here is what I have learned.
1) I hate political ads and campaigns....especially for those that I disagree with
2) I love Fall and Pumpkin any and every thing
3) I love traveling by train...no matter how delayed I am.
4) I LOVE LOVE LOVE Diversity and wish everyone was diverse.
5) I have no patience. (I already knew that)
6) I do not like ignorant, racist people.
7) America has changed and not in a good way and it has nothing, let me repeat, NOTHING to do with President Obama.
8) While we mention the President, he did not get us into the mess the country is in now...You can thank George W. Bush for the deficit, the job losses, the crap we see every day. President Obama is just being honest, telling us like it is, and is trying to HELP!
9) Health care would be good for all...let the bill with some changes pass.
10) Do not hate the Pres because he is black. He did something with his life, what about you?
11) I am not nor will I ever be a fan of Sarah Palin, Linda McMahon and anyone else dumb enough to think I would vote for them. I know what the country needs and who will be looking out for my back...it is not them or their "friends".
12) Faith is believing and what happens to me is on GOD's time - not mine (although I wish it were mine).
My FJ keeps going and I hope you keep going on it with me. You never have to agree with me. I don't care if you do since I am writing my feelings. You are always welcome to comment but if I don't agree - I can't say what comes next will be pretty. Don't like my opinion? Sorry but I am who I am and I am honest with myself if nothing else.
Thanks for helping me continue to push through on my FJ.

Intolerance is not cool

I am currently watching 20/20 and the topic of Islam. I keep hearing on the news about the GLBT teens that have killed themselves over the past month. These stories show me so much about the "American Dream" and where we live. It makes me so sad. The US and people who call themselves Americans want everyone else in the world to think that the country is great and this is the place to be. I have lived here my whole life and I question it even more daily now than ever. 

I am African-American...maybe more so than the president. But everyone sees the color of his skin and he is horrible and everyone wants to say he put us (the U.S.) in this horrible state which is not true. People are blaming him and all they look at is the color of his skin. No one wants to put blame on the president before, light-skinned and dumb who has screwed the country. Born and bred in Texas, father a previous president and all he did was make things worst. He started a war looking for Weapons of Mass Destruction that never were and never have been in the Middle East. It reminds me of the KKK and Hitler. They started a war on people who were different. 

It started years ago with slavery of the blacks. Now, in 2010, people want to say we are in a better place. Discrimination is down....is it really? I don't think so. We discriminate against people who look different. We discriminate against people who have a different religious background or sexual orientation. It is the same. Discrimination is discrimination no matter how it is dressed up.

Today discrimination is still here. We have teens killing themselves because they are bullied - straight or gay. We have gay teens killing themselves because of a lack of privacy, because they can not handle the abuse. I feel their pain. I know where they are coming from and I am not gay. It may have been a different form but it was still the same thing - Discrimination. It is sad how this world, this country has turned out. We just keep getting closer and closer to being where we were 150 years ago, even 50 years ago. It was not happy times. They say history repeats itself. I can only pray it won't repeat those times because they were horrible and call me selfish but I don't think I am strong enough to survive that. In order for history to repeat itself, it means we as people did not learn years ago and still have not learned. 

I don't want history to repeat itself but I think it slowly is subtle different forms. Whether you have a different belief, sexual orientation, religious affiliation, or anything else...I DO NOT CARE. Stop Discrimination. Stand up for the right thing and help us get to a better place in life. Intolerance is not cool and never has been. Learn to love diversity and learn to love those who are different. I pray one day soon we as a whole can be accepting of all but I fear I won't be around for that.