So...Holiday time

Well, now it has been over a month since I have last written. While I lay in bed watching Ellen and her 12 days of giveaways, I always get jealous this time of year. Why? I am never in California and I want to attend a 12 days of giveaways. Especially since I missed Oprah's! Haha. 
Okay, but for real. It's the time of year where everyone expects a present. It is the season of giving (for me I love to give) and receiving. It will be a first for me to give on a limited budget, the most limited I have ever had. After 6 months, still no job. And with Christmas approaching it is limited funds.
I am thankful. At this time of year, I see others' struggling and I am thankful I am not struggling as much as they are. I can only think of Travis McCoy ft. Bruno Mars' in "I Want to Be a Billionaire" because I do. If I had the money, I could help make a difference for someone who could not afford it. I could make a difference for a lot of people who could not afford it. I could make a difference for my parents and give them things they always wanted but due to me they could not afford.
I sit and think of how I want the new Kinect with Dance Central and other games. My husband always wants a whole bunch of games and there is a little kid out there who all they will get is a stuffed animal and some clothes because that is all that mommy and daddy could afford. I am blessed, even with no job. I want a job so I could feel like I am doing more. I helped the less fortunate before Thanksgiving. I am going to go shopping for some more less fortunate. It's still not enough. I see the sad faces of little kids or heartwarming stories on tv and they make me cry. It is sad to see where these people are. And it could be me one day.
I sat outside of Target the day after Thanksgiving for a Black Friday sale. To see the people in the store pushing and grabbing two of this so they did not have to wait was something else. I learned I never need to do another Black Friday sale again. I saw on tv that at a Target in NY a man was trampled over. He could not believe people would be like that this time of year. Sad, I can see people like that and believe even with the time of year it is, they would be like that.
I want to be a billionaire so I can buy things for those less fortunate and help the world. If I can't be a billionaire, maybe I could just get a job so I could slowly start to help others!